June 2010
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“Life is ten percent what happens to you and ninety percent how you respond to...”
– Lou Holtz (via kari-shma)
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I'm BACK.
Sorry I have been awol the last few days working, with one of my coworkers away ill I’ve had to fill in the gaps. Needless to say, I’m exhausted. I’m not used to working this much especially now that I’ve started medication!
I have had a hard time with the “guy unavailable” as well. I reached out to him and to one of my best friends last week and was...
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What makes me happy...
Just watched the Glee finale last night after having missed it last Tuesday. I was sitting there bawling through a good portion of it. It was your typical, tied up ends ending, without the drama of an impending cliffhanger. But is Glee that type of show? No.
Glee’s entire purpose is to make you feel good. The entire purpose of the show outweighs its need to be logical, practical, or...
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“Always bear in mind that your own resolution to succeed is more important than...”
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Abraham Lincoln
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Word of the Day
Sorry for the delay, I missed the Word of the Day! Here’s one for your Monday :) (Unintentional but hilarious rhyming…poet? I think so.)
Thanks to the-chosen-pessimist at Deviant Art.
“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you...”
– Eleanor Roosevelt
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Day Four/Day Five
I’ve gone through my fourth/fifth days of taking medication for my anxiety and depression. So far, Zoloft isn’t so bad, although the side effects have been odd.
day four:
I had a headache all Thursday, but didn’t take anything for it till this morning. It was a weird “zoned out” headache so I attributed it to the medication, although I’m not positive.
That...
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UPLIFTING
by oceanday at Deviant Art.
Abandoned places
On the topic of inspiration, I was shown this awesome link to some of the world’s most beautiful “modern ruins” left forgotten.
The picture above is from a photo series, The Ruins of Detroit by Marchand and Meffre.
This one is a City Hall Subway Station in New York City, photographed by Fred Guenther.
Visit The Coolist for the entire list of Abandoned Places: 10 Creepy,...
why we sing along
theuproar:
we all listen for a line that touches us inside
something to describe a picture of our lives
and every time we hear it we turn the volume high
cause it’s something to remind us we aren’t alone in life
it’s funny the way we all feel the same
it’s funny the way we want a song to explain
all the things we’re too scared to say
and singing along is the safest way
to speak our minds...
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“Trials give you strength, sorrows give understanding and wisdom.”
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Chuck T. Falcon
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Word of the Day
While we're on the topic
Happy Pills by prettymonkey26 at Deviant Art.
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Day Three.
Welcome to my Journey on Zoloft. Today will be Day Four, but since I take my pills in the evening, this will document Day Three.
So first, the bad:
I’ve found that I’ve become very angry. I read about some of the Zoloft side effects on this message board: http://depression.about.com/b/2004/09/03/zoloft-side-effects-index.htm
Aggression and argumentativeness seem to be two...
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My thoughts on drugs
I have been on about 3-4 different medications in the past for anxiety and depression. Paxil, Effexor, Celexa and Cipralex (in that order too, I think).
Note: I realized that I can actually do page breaks on tumblr, so from now on I will be using this in my longer posts! I am still a novice at this so please bare with me! :p
As for my take on the drugs I’ve taken, let’s put it...
Maybe you're just "unlucky"
I’m about to go to sleep and despite how exhausted I am, I am somewhat compelled to write this about my current thoughts. Yes, they still happen even when I’m about to pass out. I’m feeling particularly depressed in the moment because I have a hard time understanding how so many things can be right and perfect for the potential in a relationship to unfold - yet so wrong at the...
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A feel good story for those who were ever bullied: →
My friend A sent me this article on the future of the “Star Wars Kid”. Read up kids. Warms the heart.
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Guy Advice from a Guy:
My friend A, often consoles me when I’m having a hard time with guys. He is really quite on top of his people-analyzing skills and he can offer the following advice, perhaps it will be interesting to you too.
When we invest in a person emotionally, we do it very very hardcore. We cannot dip our toes into the water when it comes to a relationship. We can seperate certain things in our...
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Mamma...
All my friends know how my battles usually run. They usually start with an M and end with a OM. I live with my mom, and I get to deal with her “crazy” (as my friends call it) way more often than I should.
I will probably end up ranting a lot about my relationship with her because it’s complex and interesting.
But to tie-in to my post on my friend’s 3 daily questions...
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15 Books to read before they hit the BIG screen:
2. The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson
* What it’s about: The first book in the Millennium trilogy, the story follows a journalist named Mikael Blomkvist who teams up with a computer hacker named Lisbeth Salander to uncover a family secret surrounding a woman’s disappearance. The movie version is on its way.
* Who’s starring: Carey Mulligan has been rumored for...
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“You must let what happens happen. Everything must be equal in your eyes, good...”
– The NeverEnding Story by Michael Ende.
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Welcome Randomness.
I find that what helps me most when I’m feeling crappy, is finding beautiful, funny or just plain random things online and in my life. Those things make me smile, they help me forget (at least momentarily) what is troubling or pissing me off in the first place.
Actually my friend M - she told me once to answer three things a day:
1) One thing you liked about your day 2) One thing that...
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So the story continues.
So I meet this guy, I sleep with him cause I think the sexual chemistry is through the ceiling, and when I try to pursue it, I find out that he doesn’t want a relationship. Are we following? I sure hope you are.
I’ve given him time to kinda breathe between the few times we have hooked up (the two first times were guilt free, the third time I did a little bit of guilting and it became awkward). ...
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“There is a place where the sidewalk ends
And before the street begins,
And...”
– Shel Silverstein (courtesy of Poem Hunter)
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Sidenote:
I always wanted someone normal because I felt like their normalcy could somehow equate or balance my crazy, and in theory calm me down. Through talking to my friends and meeting GU I have learned that that is not the case. I need a little bit of fucked up as much as I thought I needed that little bit of Banana Republic man. Who wouldn’t want to be idealistic there though, we want the best for...
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15 Things Hollywood needs to stop doing →
Bad Phone Etiquette:
What is it with movie-directors and phone-calls? If the people involved in film-making behaved in reality as the characters in their movies do, then they’d hang up on every person who calls them. It’s beyond ridiculous to imagine a world where everybody answers the phone with “what” and hangs up without so much as closing grunt. Even more perturbing than the outlandishly...
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So then there's the guy, THE GUY:
Continued from the last post:
First of all, anything and everything I surf online will immediately bring me to things that remind me of said person. I will be inspired and insistent on sending these things to said person. Said person will be like WHOA MAMA. Especially if the person you’re talking to is not the most avid of communicators to begin with, a little bit of warm me action is a bit...
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I’m pretty convinced men are a separate species:
In my 20some odd years I’d never think that attaining such a thing as a normal relationship with a man who wasn’t at least SORT of gay (even those who are) would be such a challenge in my life. It’s like all communication fades into ranting and rambling and babbling and any other synonym you can find for basically saying “talking out of your ass”. I don’t know why men make me nervous, oh wait,...